Lethargic day...

MONDAY!!! The most dreaded day of the week... almost killed me to crawl out of bed this morning... i was so exhausted and sleepy i wanted to sleep in and pon school again haha... But anyhow, i woke up and went to school with eyes half-opened... Lectures were super boring today, didn't feel like i've learnt anything important or interesting.

The fustrating part was finding out what another friend had to say. While, we have been having issues, and i seriously do not think too well of her after what we have been through. But after all this years of friendship, she actually had the cheek to go to the others to tell them that she actually wasn't close to us. I mean she's like a double-headed snake who says something pacifying in front of us and stabs us in the back when we aren't looking. I am hugely disappointed in her, all this years of sticking to her shit and being there for her whenever she needs it just all went down the drain. Me and my other friend agreed that it was and has been a one-sided contribution... its always us being there for her and never the other way round. Actually, we don't really mind the one-sided contribution but things really got out of hand in the past month as we had enough of her insecurities and trusting issues. I mean COME ON!!! Who doesn't have trusting issues man?! its just about how you handle it. I don't trust ppl easily too but it does not mean i don't try. Y commented that she was treating us like her boyfriend, which i think was very true. Everytime i stop talking to her or go crazy with the others, she gets really upset and will start asking questions like "r u angry w me?" (it happens like everday in school the past... can u imagine?) SERIOUSLY!!! My life does not and will not revolve around hers. To me she was just a normal friend, she ain't like my good friends who have been through thick and thin with me since young... she really can't expect me to give her special treatment and attention all the time esp when she is NOT my good friend. Life in school is always better without her around, as i don't have to deal with her bloody issues... I don't mean to be rude or mean, but sometimes i think its such character of hers that has made her almost friendless all this while. You really have got to know her and be in our shoes to understand... she is IMPOSSIBLE!!! Even k, a person with super high tolerance cannot stand her issues too. As im currently going through a rough patch and do not have any extra energy to deal with her insecurities, I don't know what i should do with her, there's only 2 words in my mind everytime i come into inevitable contact with her..."be nice!"

It will be a LONG LONG LONG day tmr. 7 hours of TCM lectures, where half the time the prof is talking about redundant stuffs... followed by floorball training at night, not looking forward to it at all. I think i lost that passion i once had for the game. I can't help reminsicing about the happy, pressure-free floorball trainings i used to have in the past. Miss laughing crazily while training with the old storm girls. Really miss my ex-fellow teammates like Yiping the auntie who never fail to make me laugh (laugh at her actually wahaha), Ru ying the blur & always sleepy queen and the "teh bao" sze bee.

I have a test on thurs and haven't started studying yet. Think im screwed, but i just can't bring myself to touch the books esp with all the rubbish that is going on in my life. Haha anyway, i have no qualms about admitting that im just plain lazy... feel like sleeping all the time i start reading TCM stuffs. Karen warned me about the huge amount of content to study... sigh... im exhausted!